Hello. I don't know where to start my story! Maybe it's better to start by asking a question. Have any of you ever experienced true love? Of course, everyone thinks that the relationship they are in is true love! But I mean the love that you have felt with all your flesh, skin and bones.But let me tell you the story of my life, this is the first place where I write my story, maybe because I don't know you and you don't know me!When I was young, like most of my peers, I was involved in promiscuous relationships, and of course, I don't need to say where they ended up. At the age of 27, my last relationship with a girl I stayed with for 3 years ended, and after that I never got into a relationship again. In addition, I was diagnosed with phagophobia disorder (fear of swallowing solids), which caused me to withdraw from my family, friends and society. I was suffering from this disease for eight years, and my food was only liquids (8 glasses of cocoa milk a day). During these years, I did not intend to have a relationship with any girl, both because of the bitter experiences I had and because of my disease, which completely occupied me. . In the seventh year of my illness, I met a girl by chance. A girl I had never met before. We used to talk for hours without getting tired, about everything: philosophy, politics, poetry and literature and everyday events. At first, she just was a very good friend for me, a full-fledged teacher, until after a few months I felt that I liked her. I expressed my love to her, but she said that she is not suitable for me. When I asked the reason, I found out that she is one of conjoined twins who were separated during a surgery when they were children.(,in Germany/1985) They were attached to each other from the heart area and after the separation operation, she had a big heart on the right side, which in addition to the problems it had by it's self, caused the lack of development of the lungs, which caused her to have breathing problems at times. But despite knowing this, I loved her, even more when I realized that she had suffered a lot since childhood. The description of the sufferings she endured during her life is detailed and it hurts the heart of every human being. And strangely, her parents They had died before her while the doctors thought she would die as a child (life is not predictable at all). Our love started, unfortunately, she died and I felt like a piece of my soul was separated, and I could never be the person I was before. My illness improved a year after her death, and a few months after my recovery, my father suffered a stroke and became paralyzed, and now I have been taking care of him 24 hours a day for 4 years!(I think a movie can be made about the strange life of me and my wife) Now, during these years, I always think about how I experienced love very accidentally. What are the prerequisites for experiencing true love? Maybe I can conclude that love appears when it takes your hand and takes you into its kingdom when:

1- You have experienced useless relationships and endured their suffering

2- You are used to being alone and you even enjoy it.

3_ When you are not madly looking for love.

I think it is not us who find love, it is love who finds us. (When the student is ready, the master appears)I told this story to know your experiences and opinion. Have you ever experienced pure love? In what circumstances? And most importantly, do you think you can fall in love twice? Or do you think we only have one soul mate?Finally, let me say that every pleasure in this world is mixed with pain. Every gain has a loss. But even when we lose our lover, that love never ends. It may seem exaggerated, but if our existence in this world has only one purpose, it is to experience love.In Farsi, we have many poems that refer to the same issue. Thank you for reading my story. I hope you are not bored